Day 13
Sometimes Faith is all we have to get us through the day or a bad situation or time in life. Faith, combined with Love and Hope are some of strongest tools we can possess in life. They help us get through tough situations. Help us look forward to the future. Help us find the goodness in ourselves and others. (Though sometimes there is very little if any to be found in some people).
But don't let the faults and failures of others take over and destroy the greatness that lies within you. I know personally sometimes the bad in the world gets the best of everyone, i know it does me. But i then try to find the love that i know is in me and i know is in others, and make it through righteously and spiritually intact. Evil and the generally not so goodness that can be in people and the world is like a festering contagious disease that wants to spread, infect, multiply and destroy any and everything that it can.
Love, hope and faith are the cure. The old saying "Love conquers all" is so true. At least to my findings. It so much easier to find the bad in someone or something, but to overlook it and find the good is much more powerful and useful to everyone. Even though it is hard to do and sometimes just plain impossible. But if we search hard enough and faith is winning i know it can be achieved.
The are situations that i am having to deal with right now, but i know that love is present and undying. I have my faith and hope to help me make it through. And even though things are tough right now, and will only be getting tougher, time heals all wounds. At least thats what i hear and i hope that its true. My grandmother who raised me and is more of a parent to me than either one of my biological parents is battling cancer. Its not looking too good and the doctors are putting her on hospice.
I know what is going to be the inevitable outcome, but all i ask is that she has peace and does not suffer. For a woman who has devoted her whole life to her family and who has only ever wanted to give her love to make us all better people i could not bare to live and think that she is not at peace and has suffered. I honestly think that is more than i could handle. Other than my children she is the one person in this world that i love more than anything! But with that love, and my faith in God, i know she will be at home with God again. I hope that one day i too will be with them in Heaven.
I want nothing more than her to be surrounded by love and her loved ones in the time that she has left. I know if i live a hundred more years, there is no one that will mean more to me, no one that will be there to provide an unyielding and unconditional love than my grandma. My hope and faith allows me to know that she will be at peace and without pain again when she returns home to the presence of God that i know is never ending and always there. And one day (after a long life god willing) hopefully if faith, hope, love, good karma, and my spirituality prevails i will join them also.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Keep it to ya self please...
Day 12
Well well, i fell out of touch yesterday and didn't make my daily post...but as the old saying goes "shit happens". I did do a lot of thinking and meditation yesterday, but providing the situations that came up i never got around to making a post. But anyhow i'm here today, and with an observation/complaint to make.
I know i have my very own strong personal opinions and beliefs (religious or otherwise) on just about everything. And i do not mind speaking out on those issues in life, on my facebook page or on this blog. But i try and draw the line at going out and thrusting those opinions on people in their private spaces or just forcing them upon anyone in general.
We are all different and that's the way God made us and intended it be. I respect those differences, because i know that NO ONE is perfect and without sin. But i really get pissed when some people believe that others have to believe in and abide by their personal beliefs and try to push those things off on others. Its bullshit and it isn't right. I don't want to hear anyone's intolerant bigotry bullshit and wish that they wouldn't speak to me or acknowledge me at all if that is their intent.
I make many observations and statements on issues that i believe in and support. But i don't go around arguing my point to people. If someone wants to start with me and argue their point, then yes, most likely i am going to put my two cents in. But i understand that we are all entitled to give and get respect. That we are different and may have different opinions.
I just don't like when people try to bully others into their beliefs. Or try to put down and belittle someone into thinking badly about their own ideas, thoughts, or opinions. If your opinions, thoughts, or whatever are your's personally and you're not out here forcing them upon people, i really don't care what you personally believe. It's those ignorant individuals that go out spewing hate, ignorance, and intolerance in the world that i cant stand and don't want to have anything to do with.
If people were perfect to begin with i don't really see that there would be a point in life. I believe we are all given a chance on this earth to grow, love one another, and make a difference for the betterment of mankind as a whole. The more we learn to see the beauty in one another and to help that beauty thrive and grow the better we all are off. This is something i strive for everyday, to listen and understand where people are coming from, the more we understand and accept each other, the more we can understand and accept ourselves.
Well well, i fell out of touch yesterday and didn't make my daily post...but as the old saying goes "shit happens". I did do a lot of thinking and meditation yesterday, but providing the situations that came up i never got around to making a post. But anyhow i'm here today, and with an observation/complaint to make.
I know i have my very own strong personal opinions and beliefs (religious or otherwise) on just about everything. And i do not mind speaking out on those issues in life, on my facebook page or on this blog. But i try and draw the line at going out and thrusting those opinions on people in their private spaces or just forcing them upon anyone in general.
We are all different and that's the way God made us and intended it be. I respect those differences, because i know that NO ONE is perfect and without sin. But i really get pissed when some people believe that others have to believe in and abide by their personal beliefs and try to push those things off on others. Its bullshit and it isn't right. I don't want to hear anyone's intolerant bigotry bullshit and wish that they wouldn't speak to me or acknowledge me at all if that is their intent.
I make many observations and statements on issues that i believe in and support. But i don't go around arguing my point to people. If someone wants to start with me and argue their point, then yes, most likely i am going to put my two cents in. But i understand that we are all entitled to give and get respect. That we are different and may have different opinions.
I just don't like when people try to bully others into their beliefs. Or try to put down and belittle someone into thinking badly about their own ideas, thoughts, or opinions. If your opinions, thoughts, or whatever are your's personally and you're not out here forcing them upon people, i really don't care what you personally believe. It's those ignorant individuals that go out spewing hate, ignorance, and intolerance in the world that i cant stand and don't want to have anything to do with.
If people were perfect to begin with i don't really see that there would be a point in life. I believe we are all given a chance on this earth to grow, love one another, and make a difference for the betterment of mankind as a whole. The more we learn to see the beauty in one another and to help that beauty thrive and grow the better we all are off. This is something i strive for everyday, to listen and understand where people are coming from, the more we understand and accept each other, the more we can understand and accept ourselves.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
If you say you don't care, DON'T complain!
Day 9
I know i'm trying to turn over an new leaf and become a happier, nicer, and less complaint prone person, but sometimes shit happens and my anger gets the best of me. So in those moments i just have to rant on about it for a minute. So either leave now, or bare with me...I have just had to tell someone exactly what i think of them and their situation. The situation is that entirely of their doing and that can be helped by them and them only.
We'll call this person "Example A". Example A is a perfectly well and able adult individual, all except for being abnormally lazy. Example A does not have a job, not because they aren't able of getting a job, they just would rather devote their lives to their numerous hobbies and excuses. This person has absolutely perfected the skill of total avoidance of anything to do in any way, shape or form that can be even in the slightest context be work related. (I think they should've been a politician).
What gets me about this person is that they are constantly complaining to anyone or thing that will listen...even those of us that have listened, tried to speak reason with them, and have grown so tired of hearing it, but are still forced to hear it until we become so feed up that we want to quite literally slap the shit out of them. Then when finally we hit the breaking point and tell them exactly what we think of the situation, they get mad because their feelings get hurt. But first they say that "it doesn't really bother" them that they are broke and near destitute.
Well guess what Example A and all the other asses out there that don't want to do anything for themselves to help their situations but endlessly complain about them, IF YOU DON'T CARE, THEN DON'T COMPLAIN! If you cared in the first place about it you might actually do something to try and turn the situation around. There are billions of people in this world with far worse circumstances in life that actually do everything they can everyday to try and get a better life. Millions here in this country alone that go out and look for work everyday and cant find it. Or those people that work 2 and 3 jobs for minimum wage, live paycheck to paycheck and still cant get ahead.
People that are disabled but want to and wish they could get work and cant. People that live in rural poverty stricken places that cant even feed their children, get educations for themselves or their children to get out of their situations and environments to do better. People that worked hard for companies their whole lives just to be laid off so the work could be shipped over seas to save the company money. They now don't get anything, no benefits or insurance, nothing! Those are the people that i feel bad for. Those are the people that need government assistance and cant always get it, and when they do they feel guilt and shame and all the stigma that is attached to it.
I pray for those people, that they can find the strength to go on, and hope they are blessed with the things they need in life. Hope they don't feel bad about themselves for maybe needing help to get through the bad times in life. I want them to know there are people out there that do care and want the best not just for themselves and their families, but want what is best for everyone. So Example A, get your shit together, put away the excuses, and do something about your situation. And if you cant do that, then SHUT THE HELL UP!
I know i'm trying to turn over an new leaf and become a happier, nicer, and less complaint prone person, but sometimes shit happens and my anger gets the best of me. So in those moments i just have to rant on about it for a minute. So either leave now, or bare with me...I have just had to tell someone exactly what i think of them and their situation. The situation is that entirely of their doing and that can be helped by them and them only.
We'll call this person "Example A". Example A is a perfectly well and able adult individual, all except for being abnormally lazy. Example A does not have a job, not because they aren't able of getting a job, they just would rather devote their lives to their numerous hobbies and excuses. This person has absolutely perfected the skill of total avoidance of anything to do in any way, shape or form that can be even in the slightest context be work related. (I think they should've been a politician).
What gets me about this person is that they are constantly complaining to anyone or thing that will listen...even those of us that have listened, tried to speak reason with them, and have grown so tired of hearing it, but are still forced to hear it until we become so feed up that we want to quite literally slap the shit out of them. Then when finally we hit the breaking point and tell them exactly what we think of the situation, they get mad because their feelings get hurt. But first they say that "it doesn't really bother" them that they are broke and near destitute.
Well guess what Example A and all the other asses out there that don't want to do anything for themselves to help their situations but endlessly complain about them, IF YOU DON'T CARE, THEN DON'T COMPLAIN! If you cared in the first place about it you might actually do something to try and turn the situation around. There are billions of people in this world with far worse circumstances in life that actually do everything they can everyday to try and get a better life. Millions here in this country alone that go out and look for work everyday and cant find it. Or those people that work 2 and 3 jobs for minimum wage, live paycheck to paycheck and still cant get ahead.
People that are disabled but want to and wish they could get work and cant. People that live in rural poverty stricken places that cant even feed their children, get educations for themselves or their children to get out of their situations and environments to do better. People that worked hard for companies their whole lives just to be laid off so the work could be shipped over seas to save the company money. They now don't get anything, no benefits or insurance, nothing! Those are the people that i feel bad for. Those are the people that need government assistance and cant always get it, and when they do they feel guilt and shame and all the stigma that is attached to it.
I pray for those people, that they can find the strength to go on, and hope they are blessed with the things they need in life. Hope they don't feel bad about themselves for maybe needing help to get through the bad times in life. I want them to know there are people out there that do care and want the best not just for themselves and their families, but want what is best for everyone. So Example A, get your shit together, put away the excuses, and do something about your situation. And if you cant do that, then SHUT THE HELL UP!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Patience Please
Day 8
My name isn't T.I., but i am most definitely "praying for patience". (Haha) It something that i seriously need to have more of, and something i think everyone benefits from having. For their sake and everyone else's around them. I get aggravated too quickly, its not just that people tell me this, i know its a fact on my own. I hate waiting for anyone or anything. I'm usually not just on time for something, i'm usually a few minutes ahead of time. And it really pisses me off when people are late and believe that its an acceptable behavior.
I know some things cant be helped, but i know some people are habitual offenders. Isn't the purpose of an appointment meant that its a set date and or time. Doctors are usually the ones that cross this line with me the most. Then there is always that old foe the cable company. I have told people in both professions maybe since they cant uphold to time schedules, that i might be late paying for a service and they should consider that okay as well. (I wish i was mean and careless enough to uphold to the threats, but i have bigger priorities than making added late fees to something).
Its rude and a very unappealing quality. One that i get super frustrated with due to my lack of patience. Another thing that frustrates me is when i have to ask more than once or twice...or three times...etc...that one or both of my kids do something or stop doing something. I know they're just kids, but dang...hard headed much? (yes, i said dang...i watched a piece of "Joe Dirt" yesterday and it sticks for a while). Anyhow, that is what happened yesterday when i lost patience because my son would not listen. The loss of patience made me super frustrated and i accidentally deleted my blog files.
Which by the way i should have not been such an idiot and saved the files on my computer or a disc. But through the mistakes that i and everyone else make, we learn a lesson. Or at least that is what we should be doing. But sometimes that is more trial and error and it takes a few mistakes to learn the lesson. Either way i wish there where easier ways to make these realizations. Like parents wish that their children would learn from their mistakes, mostly they cant. They have to go out into the world and make their own choices and see how the world really works.
But i ask God to give me better qualities more than to give me better things. Because with better qualities in life i can most certainly go out to do and get better myself. So please on this Monday morning God, bestow me with some more patience that i most certainly will need at some point further in this day so i don't lose it on another individual. :)
My name isn't T.I., but i am most definitely "praying for patience". (Haha) It something that i seriously need to have more of, and something i think everyone benefits from having. For their sake and everyone else's around them. I get aggravated too quickly, its not just that people tell me this, i know its a fact on my own. I hate waiting for anyone or anything. I'm usually not just on time for something, i'm usually a few minutes ahead of time. And it really pisses me off when people are late and believe that its an acceptable behavior.
I know some things cant be helped, but i know some people are habitual offenders. Isn't the purpose of an appointment meant that its a set date and or time. Doctors are usually the ones that cross this line with me the most. Then there is always that old foe the cable company. I have told people in both professions maybe since they cant uphold to time schedules, that i might be late paying for a service and they should consider that okay as well. (I wish i was mean and careless enough to uphold to the threats, but i have bigger priorities than making added late fees to something).
Its rude and a very unappealing quality. One that i get super frustrated with due to my lack of patience. Another thing that frustrates me is when i have to ask more than once or twice...or three times...etc...that one or both of my kids do something or stop doing something. I know they're just kids, but dang...hard headed much? (yes, i said dang...i watched a piece of "Joe Dirt" yesterday and it sticks for a while). Anyhow, that is what happened yesterday when i lost patience because my son would not listen. The loss of patience made me super frustrated and i accidentally deleted my blog files.
Which by the way i should have not been such an idiot and saved the files on my computer or a disc. But through the mistakes that i and everyone else make, we learn a lesson. Or at least that is what we should be doing. But sometimes that is more trial and error and it takes a few mistakes to learn the lesson. Either way i wish there where easier ways to make these realizations. Like parents wish that their children would learn from their mistakes, mostly they cant. They have to go out into the world and make their own choices and see how the world really works.
But i ask God to give me better qualities more than to give me better things. Because with better qualities in life i can most certainly go out to do and get better myself. So please on this Monday morning God, bestow me with some more patience that i most certainly will need at some point further in this day so i don't lose it on another individual. :)
Sunday, November 7, 2010
BLOG DOWN! BLOG DOWN!
HELP! i am in complete and utter crisis mode. i was having to tell my son to stop his bad behavior for oh maybe the millionth time this morning when posting the blog that i had barely got through writing because all the stopping that i had to do, when i accidentally deleted it and all my other blogs. i am a self professed moron when it comes to things technology wise and thought i was posting them on another site and i deleted them, but not their links. Now they come up as they don't exist. I have tried everything i can think of to get them back, because like that moron that resides in my brain from time to time, i didn't also save them on my computer. Just for that alone i think its fates way of pointing and laughing at me this morning and taught me the lesson to save them in another file. Which personally i think fate could have been a nice guy this morning and let me know in a more subtle fashion to not be such a careless dumb ass. Oh but Karma prevails once more. If anyone who happens to venture across this and knows how i can possibly get those blogs back please be a wonderful person and let me know. But until then i am writing this message and confession of idiocy. I will be continuing my daily rant/thoughts until such time is reached, please bare with my crazy self. :D
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