Gotta Have Faith

Day 13


Sometimes Faith is all we have to get us through the day or a bad situation or time in life. Faith, combined with Love and Hope are some of strongest tools we can possess in life. They help us get through tough situations. Help us look forward to the future. Help us find the goodness in ourselves and others. (Though sometimes there is very little if any to be found in some people). 


But don't let the faults and failures of others take over and destroy the greatness that lies within you. I know personally sometimes the bad in the world gets the best of everyone, i know it does me. But i then try to find the love that i know is in me and i know is in others, and make it through righteously and spiritually intact. Evil and the generally not so goodness that can be in people and the world is like a festering contagious disease that wants to spread, infect, multiply and destroy any and everything that it can. 


Love, hope and faith are the cure. The old saying "Love conquers all" is so true. At least to my findings. It so much easier to find the bad in someone or something, but to overlook it and find the good is much more powerful and useful to everyone. Even though it is hard to do and sometimes just plain impossible. But if we search hard enough and faith is winning i know it can be achieved. 


The are situations that i am having to deal with right now, but i know that love is present and undying. I have my faith and hope to help me make it through. And even though things are tough right now, and will only be getting tougher, time heals all wounds. At least thats what i hear and i hope that its true. My grandmother who raised me and is more of a parent to me than either one of my biological parents is battling cancer. Its not looking too good and the doctors are putting her on hospice. 


I know what is going to be the inevitable outcome, but all i ask is that she has peace and does not suffer. For a woman who has devoted her whole life to her family and who has only ever wanted to give her love to make us all better people i could not bare to live and think that she is not at peace and has suffered. I honestly think that is more than i could handle. Other than my children she is the one person in this world that i love more than anything! But with that love, and my faith in God, i know she will be at home with God again. I hope that one day i too will be with them in Heaven. 


I want nothing more than her to be surrounded by love and her loved ones in the time that she has left. I know if i live a hundred more years, there is no one that will mean more to me, no one that will be there to provide an unyielding and unconditional love than my grandma. My hope and faith allows me to know that she will be at peace and without pain again when she returns home to the presence of God that i know is never ending and always there. And one day (after a long life god willing) hopefully if faith, hope, love, good karma, and my spirituality prevails i will join them also.