As Hard As I Try...

You know some days I believe that certain individuals are trying with all their might to try and create havoc not only in their lives but other's as well. I have been on my "spiritual expedition" now for a few months. (It's my personal journey to find peace in myself and the world around me, so I'll call it what I want. :P ) Now here are the things that really gets me pissy and makes me want to do or do something that isn't so productive to the path that i would like to continue my life's journey on. 


I don't know why people can not or just flat out refuse to keep their noses on their faces. If I don't volunteer my personal information about whatever, why do some people feel the need to either ask around to other's about whatever it is that they feel they need to know about, or just keep asking me. If you are reading this and you are one of those individuals or if you are one of the individuals that keeps getting asked by others to be informed on me, please STOP! It is really aggravating and not only is it mostly inaccurate information being passed around, its NONE of YOUR business! ( I realize that this not only happens to me, but mostly everyone. So lets just say I'm speaking on behalf of everyone in general who is feed up with rumors, half-truths, and general mouth running gossipers.)


If there is something that I feel others should know, I will happily give out that information. And if you are on the receiving end of that info, please let it stop there. There is absolutely no reason that you have to be a knock-off news reporter and pass my life's story around to any and everyone that you may come in contact with. If people would respect that with me and everyone else in life, I will gladly bestow you with the same courtesy and I'm sure others will follow suit and life would be easier and more drama free for all involved. 


The Amish have a custom of not talking about any other individual if that person is not present. I think it is one of the more sensible and practical things that we could all only benefit from practicing. I know that isn't really a reality in todays society, but I think its a fabulous idea and am going to try to work it into my daily life as much as possible. But like I've said many times before, we are all only human and I'm sure like with everything else I try to do in life I will have slip ups. Hell, I will be the first to admit, that for me and many Americans gossip have become almost a national pass-time. Haha.


Another things that really gets in my crawl is rudeness! For example, If a person is a "friend" on any social networking site and I make a status or comment on MY page, and they happen to disagree or have a comment back, I wish they wouldn't be so shitty about how they comment back. I don't mind a debate with another person. I welcome those actually. I love when educated people with different opinions can have a conversation about issues that they may or may not agree on. In reality that is how some of the greatest problems have been solved. The world would be a bland place if everyone thought the same on everything. 


But what I am getting at here is people commenting back, "Oh, that is so stupid", or "You are completely wrong for believing that", or any of the other put downs they can muster up. Here is a fact plain and simple, if you don't agree with or like what another person is saying, and its not hurting any one by what their opinion is, DON'T READ IT! No where in the world does it say we have to read everything everyone puts out there. That is why this country is so great, we have freedoms and liberties that not everyone in this world has. So use that freedom, ignore what is not conducive to your success in life and refrain from negative actions toward others. 


I know many people that don't believe in the things that I do. That don't share my same sense of spirituality or mentality. That don't have my political beliefs. That just plain don't understand me in any aspect. Nor do i share their beliefs or understand them. But I do not go into their personal space and condemn or put down them. I just wish that everyone would do the same in regards to me and others. If what one personally feels is not hurting others, or they're not out there recruiting other's to spread negative actions I personally do not really give a sh*t. 


I just don't understand in general what is so hard about minding one's own business. So basically what I am asking here is, be a little more understanding with our fellow man and woman. We are all only human after all. When we really get down to the nitty gritty we are all more alike than different anyway. In MY opinion we are all God's children, we are all brothers and sisters, and we all need to just learn to love one another a lot more. So while I am trying to continue on my journey, just let me be. If you are one of those people that don't understand me, or don't get the things I say, do, or believe, then i really cant help you, but please....leave me alone and don't be out there making all kinds of derogatory statements about things that don't involve you in the first place. Not only show me that respect, but please try to be as considerate of other's as well, and I will gladly show you the same respect in return.

It's That Time Of Year

We're (those of us who celebrate it) about 6 days from Christmas. To me, the most wonderful time of year. Not because of the materialistic aspects that some consider the only reason to celebrate, but because of the spiritual foundation that this holiday to me is all about. I've noticed that myself and others are usually in a better mood, more compassionate, giving, caring and understanding around this time of the season. (I have a theory about this too. As children most of us were told that Santa has his "Naughty and Nice List", and some where in the back of our conscious we are still trying to make right the rest of our year's misgivings and mis-happenings to get on the better half of that list. Not that we still believe in Santa, its just somewhere in us to try and be better people around this time.)


But hey, I'm not complaining, anytime or anything that makes us bring forth these qualities is a good idea to me. Christmas isn't the only holiday that presents these ideas and actions, but it is the one that is most popularly celebrated around the world. Wouldn't it be great if it came more than once a year though? I know the that Capitalist would be ecstatic and it might help stimulate the economy, but those are just secondary reasons. The celebration of Christ and the spreading of His message of Love and Forgiveness is the highlight that seems so appealing to me. 


Anything, rather if it is Christianity based or whatever religion(s) one might believe in that spreads the messages of Love, Hope, Acceptance, Tolerance, Forgiveness, Compassion, and Understanding are all right in my book and I want to embrace them with open arms and an open heart. So tis the season for all those things. May we all not only find them in the journeys are we on, but may we all embrace them and have them flood over so we can share them and bestow them upon others that might share our journeys and cross our paths. Help spread those messages, and show them year round, not just when the holiday season comes. 


So Happy Holidays everyone! I hope everyone gets what they want, and maybe a few things extra. ;) (What?, I'm just trying to help out the economy...lol)

Take Into Consideration

In my life process of trying to become a better person, I've learned a key point in the idea of trying to obtain this goal is taking into consideration people and the world around me in the decisions I make and the consequences they are going to have. I guess you could say that Karma has a lot to do with it, but really when i think about it to me its more than that. 


I think Karma shouldn't just be motive alone for the things that I do in life, or for anyone who believes in Karma. For example, I believe one shouldn't just go do something good on just the hope of getting better Karma for themselves. We should do good all the time just to be doing it. To be better people and make the world a better place. To show compassion and love, acceptance and understanding...not just for hopes that its going to be another blessing for us, but to want to share and create blessings for others. 


I believe when taking things into consideration, we need to take in account the big picture, not just the here and now and what is closest to us. Everyday when there is something I need to do or decide on I try and remind myself of all the possible effects my decisions or actions are going to have. Not just on me and the world immediately around me, but on others and the future. When we learn compassion for one another, and take into consideration other's feelings and circumstances we grow as people and not only are we better off for it, but the world is also. 


When we start to put other's before ourselves and our superficial needs, we are on track to turning this world around to a more positive path. And yes, I'm sure we're earning favor in God's eyes. But that favor shouldn't be motive alone, we should just want to do good just to be doing it. Just to know that we are opening our hearts to spread God's love and blessings because its overflowing with want for the betterment of all mankind. 


I know some cynical people are reading this thinking "oh, thats a nice thought but thats not the way the world works". Buy why not? Why can't the world be a better place, why can't we just have unconditional love for one another, compassion for people we've never met, the want for better for all of our brothers and sisters all over the world, and forgiveness for our's and other's trespasses? If God can show us the these things, why is it so difficult for us to do the same?


I believe we can. Its just a matter of whats really important to a person. I know its not easy to do. Nothing in this world ever is. But when you're looking at the whole picture with integrity and love as reasons enough to help guide you, there really isn't much chance of going onto the wrong path. I am a true believer of "Through God all things are possible". But in order to truly know God and do things through him, Love has to always be taken into consideration. 


Its not an easy prospect to grasps or always stay on task with, everyone has their pitfalls. It is though a matter of if we get back up, brush ourselves off, learn from our mistakes and continue on God's righteous path that he has given us all a chance to take. Everyone in life at some point or another will fall, but if we look for Love's light to guide us, we will most certainly find our way back. 

Distractions Distractions

Man oh man have i been lost in my own little world of late. I have had ADD since i can remember, it hasn't been a major problem in life, just a pain in the ass sometimes. But recently it has been overwhelming! I think the stress that has been plaguing me the last month or so is causing it to rear its ugly head. I have noticed this pattern in my life, when things become stressful, i become a hot mess and am a semi-lunatic (yes, i realize I'm not 100% sane at anytime, but i have become even more lu-lu than is even normal for me.) 


I don't like it, not one little bit and just want things to be normal again (that is my normal, lol). I haven't quite figured out yet what is the entire reason; maybe its the holidays, maybe its the weather, maybe its just a temporary laps of mentality, but i know one factor is the prospect of loosing a loved one. It all started about a month ago when my grandmother was diagnosed with a terminal cancer. It's not that I'm on the verge of some psychotic meltdown, but it is an extremely sad situation. Especially for me because of how close I am with her. 


I do know little things started to matter more to me and less to me at the same time, however weird that sounds. I now value the little moments in life more and more. But I value material possessions and money less than ever. I have put all the superficial bullsh*t on the back burner, and tried not to pay attention to it. I could have all the money in the world and all the fancy things my heart could desire, but its not going to change what God has in his plans for me or anyone else. So I'm learning to live in the here and now, and be happy with who and what God has blessed me with, and enjoy every moment i can with them. 


Though i would like to be able to finish a train of thought. Even sitting here writing this I am having a wild time trying to complete it and stay on track of what i want to say. I am thinking of a million other things i could be doing and need to be doing. None are too serious or need to be done this very second, but still its a pain in the ol' arse. I started this blog with the idea that I would try to make an entry everyday as to what my thoughts are at the moment and things that I am going through. But God has had other plans and/or distractions for me and I haven't really stayed on task. I hope I can get over this little spell of brain farts, shell-shock, and whatever else is happening right now and FOCUS! 


Until then I will continue to pray for the best, not just for myself but for everyone else in the world. Hope that we can all find peace in this wonderful life that we've been blessed to have been given a chance to make a go at. Try not to take things for granted, because nothing is. Look for those blessing in disguise and just love one another.